Dealing with Depression and Eating


Depression is an illness that affects a lot of women who struggle with weight. Our friend Beverly shares with us her struggles, and we hope her experience and her insight into the need to get professional help will encourage others who struggle with depression to take similar action.

Depression is a killer. It also makes me fat. When I agreed to share my thoughts with the women who come to Green Mountain online or in person, I thought the Black Beast was under control. But…. In the past three to four weeks, it has roared back.

For those of you who don’t know, Depression is not just about feeling sad. It is about feeling sad all the time, or at least mine is. And it comes with anxiety. All I want to do is lie on the bed and watch television or read until I fall asleep but then I wake up at 3 a.m. Nothing is fun anymore. My weird and wacky sense of humor disappears. Walking the dog, working in the garden, cooking, exercising all lose their charms. Any disruption or challenge or tiniest slight sends me into tears.

Depression can lead to suicide. It is really not something to take lightly. And speaking of lightly… I eat and drink too much. Self-medication, they call it.

I could list the triggers for this episode: issues at work, concerns about the future and retirement, not winning a contest I cared about, returning from sunny Spain to rainy Vermont. All of those can seem simply like problems to someone without Depression. To me they were the “perfect storm.”

Too much food and alcohol, not enough exercise, and withdrawal from friends and community: not a great prescription for a solution. I do have a supportive loving husband and friends and I’m slowly coming out of it.

We’re off on a whirlwind trip to the West Coast to include a seven-day Alaska cruise. Then back to Virginia for a wedding. I’m packing the exercise clothes and my Green Mountain materials. And when I get back, I’m going to find a team of professionals who can help me.

If anyone who reads this even thinks that Depression is an issue in their lives and in their eating, you are not alone.

5 responses to “Dealing with Depression and Eating”

  1. While I “get depressed” from time to time, I’ve never suffered from depression. I can’t imagine such pervasive sadness, and my heart goes to all who struggle with it. Please know that there are people who care and wish you strength, peace, and brighter days ahead.

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  2. Sagan says:

    *hugs* This is something that a person can’t really understand unless they’ve been there, I think.

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  3. Gina says:

    I’ve experienced the pain and agony of depression earlier in my life, it sucks, it sucks a lot. It’s one of those things that you really can’t control and then you feel bad because it makes others around you sad and feel bad, which makes it worse! Good luck with your recovery, I’m rooting (spelling?) for you 100%. Take advantage of your supportive family and remember you are loved, no matter what.

  4. Marsha says:

    Thanks to Beverly for the courage in offering this post to our readers. Unfortunately, Depression affects more than a few of us, and it’s not easy to come out of the closet about it.

  5. I have related to this post in so many ways! I know exactly what you mean. Just a helpful suggestion to women struggling with depression or anxiety, I have tried some great natural anxiety remedies that are very effective such as: St.John’s Wort, SAMe, L-Theanine, and Tryptophan. Hope this helps because it is certainly hat has helped me through rough times.

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