(Okay, me telling all of you that I broke wind in public is arguably the most embarrassing part of this situation. But, whatever. We’re all adults here. You can keep lying to yourself, but we all know it’s happened to you, too).
“RUINmating” On All The Possible Negative Outcomes
Ok, so back to my story… it took me months to muster enough courage to open the door and walk inside the “Zumba® room” at the gym. I was afraid that I wouldn’t be able to keep up, that I’d look ridiculous, and that everyone would judge me like some overweight anomaly.
Well, the truth is that I was behind half the time and I did look ridiculous, but I was wrong about the last thing. Not a single person came up to me and said any of the following statements:
“You’re too fat for Zumba® class! I can’t do my Zumba® dancing because I’m too distracted by your horrible Zumba® dancing! Girls like you shouldn’t go to Zumba® classes! Zumba® dance on out of here, you big tub o’ blub!”
Nope. None of that sh*t happened. If we’re being honest here (which we most certainly are) that stuff pretty much only ever happens inside of my head. I ruin things before they happen by ruminating on every possible negative outcome. So much so, that I often talk myself out of doing certain activities altogether… I like to call this: RUINminating
But, this time I opened the door. (One point Jace!). And I was met without judgment and rewarded with a good old sweaty time. I had FUN. Do you remember that thing? Fun?
I know. It’s one of those “abstract” concepts that we must dig deep to comprehend, as we get older and lamer. And by lame, I mean we start doing lame things like… basing our worth on our weight.
Well, I personally do not want to waste the last month of Summer 2015 standing on the sidelines. I want to get in the game. I want to live like nobody is watching. No scratch that – I want to live like I don’t give a rat’s a$$ who’s watching!
Stop “Weighting” and Start Living!
My summer bucket list has exactly one thing crossed off: I did two classes at the gym in one week. First for all – go me!
Second of all… LAME. It’s August. I wish to have a bajillion and a half things crossed off the list by now! (I’m not judging myself or beating myself up – I’m just reflecting.) But I’ve been waiting until I feel better about myself…
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Oh crap. We promised to do that whole honesty thing today didn’t we? Ok, so I haven’t been “waiting to feel better”, I’ve been “weighting” until I think I look the way I’m “supposed” to look in order to do certain things, like:
Go swimming! Wear tank tops! Take selfies! Book personal training appointments! Yes, you read that last one right.
I’ve been craving some new workout material, but I have been refusing to “treat” myself to some training because I told myself that I would not, under any circumstances stand on that scale during the initial assessment.
I’ve been using this as an excuse. If I really didn’t want to get weighed, I could just say so. I have that right and that power. Instead, I convinced myself that I should “look better” before I can do something to better myself… Wait. What!?
No, that’s not how this works…
I’ve been honest with you throughout this entire blog (I’ve even over shared a wee bit… sorry!) but I’m going to stop lying to myself starting right now. No, seriously. I’m doing it. Want to try it with me?
As I wrap you tightly in a hug of comforting nouns and verbs, I ask you to ask yourself honestly: are you waiting or are you weighting?
It’s Never Too Late
Don’t you feel like you get stuck sometimes? Stuck on fitting a single piece of the puzzle into place, instead of focusing on the beautiful picture that that puzzle is bringing to life, one joyous moment at a time?
Our physical weight is just one small piece of the puzzle of life. It goes up, it comes down, and sometimes (for years) it doesn’t budge an inch. (Think about it: “weight” is in the word “fluctuWEIGHT”. Woah! Is your mind like totally blown right now? I thought it might be. You’re welcome.)
The less we obsess (about the numbers, our reflections, what others might think) the more time we have to focus on the big picture. You might not realize how much time and energy your worries, fears, and obsessions gobble up.
But once we let go, pay attention to our wants and needs, and allow ourselves to experience the pleasure we’ve been keeping at arm’s length – there’s suddenly an abundance of free time that we can use any which way we like!
So, I ask you… what are you going to actively work on filling your life with? Adventure? Happiness? FUN? Or… Worry? Frustration? And fear?
As exhausting as the entire decision-making process can be, we do have a choice here. And we’re too awesome to keep letting incredible opportunities get stuck in our fear filters.
It is never too late to sign up for a workout class you’ve been wanting to try, or to throw on that bathing suit and go for a swim, or to jump on that bike and go for a ride, or to put on that little black dress and dance the night away, or even sing karaoke in public. It’s never too late to give yourself these moments and turn them into memories.
Food may feed the body – but FUN feeds the soul. And FUN is most definitely not one size fits all.
Let’s make the rest of summer the best of summer.
What do you say!?
Until next time,
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