The Binge Eating Diaries: It’s Time for Jacki to Say Goodbye

This is (by far) the most difficult blog I’ve ever written.

The Binge Eating Diaries: Writing This Letter to Food Changed Everything

Here goes nothin’. The original version of what I’m about to share with you was written quickly with shaky, anxious penmanship four years ago. As I open the envelope, I can smell hints of fear, anger, sadness, and hope – the same emotions I felt while writing the most intimate, honest, and important correspondence of […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: 3 Steps to Healthy Eating on Vacation

There are dozens of flavors of vacations to choose from – the romantic getaway, the couple’s retreat, the group escape, and the solo adventure… to name just a few. And they’re all… delicious. We circle the LIFT OFF day on our calendars with a big fat red pen (or sophisticatedly log the date into our […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: Dear Food Police

This blog is dedicated to all of the self-proclaimed members of the Food Police out there. It’s your turn to listen because I’ve had about enough of your false arrests! I’m eating a meal. I’m enjoying the flavors, the textures, the smells, and the company. I’m eating exactly what I’m in the mood for: mindfully […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: Springing Forward to Overcome Fitness Setbacks

AHHH! I’m frustrated! Let me start at the beginning… When Fitness Becomes Boring Over the past couple of months, my movement routine had become a snooze fest. I wasn’t enthusiastic or excited. I was BORED. And to be perfectly honest, I could feel myself getting lazy. I was at that point where I was going to […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: What is Normal Eating?

My Journey to Healthy Eating I’m allergic to peanuts. I can’t stand the texture of mushrooms. I have equal parts salty and sweet teeth. I think raisins and onions are the perfect combination in a salad. I could eat raw cashews for days. I give kale, apples, and cake 5 stars each. For most of […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: Freedom from Too Tight Clothes

Who Wears the Pants? Once we kick the concept of diets to the curb, say goodbye to calorie counting, and stop restricting… there’s a period of bliss. The chains are gone. Our wings start growing back. We’re free. We’re FREE. We start enjoying things we had scribbled on the “bad” list for years. Our taste […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: Stop Waiting for Cheat Days

Have you ever thought of food like you do about saving money — eat less now so you can have more or something richer later? Jacki shares how that thinking can lead to an overdrawn account. Our Bodies Are Not Bank Accounts I’ve often thought of my body like a bank account. If I just keep saving […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: To Eat… or Sleep? That Was The Question

Jacki’s back with a few good questions. And answers to boot. To eat or sleep? …That was the question. It was my night off with my partner and we had made glorious plans to watch movies, savor our precious time together, and veg out. Just the two of us. I had been looking forward to that […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: Emotional and Binge Eating Intensive Workshop 2014

It’s about 1:00 pm when I pull into Green Mountain. It’s the third time in four years that I’ve made my way up Fox Lane, heading toward the place that would, did, and still is changing my life. The sky is clear and the ground is coated in a thin layer of vanilla snow. It […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: Getting Through the Holidays

Okay ladies (and gents!). We made it through Thanksgiving… one of (if not THE) biggest “food” holidays out there. And as a recovering binge eater, it remains one of the most challenging days of the year for me. For a lot of people, it’s the ONE day of the year when it feels socially acceptable […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: How to Turn Free Time into ME Time

As someone who suffered from binge eating disorder and is now well into recovery, Jacki Monaco regularly shares her journey on A Weight Lifted in her column “The Binge Eating Diaries.” One of the great things about getting laid off is the excessive amount of free time! One of the worst things about getting laid […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: It’s Not All About Me

The Binge Eating Diaries are a regular column written by Jacki Monaco, who came to Green Mountain several years ago struggling with binge eating. We hope that sharing her insights and experiences as she overcomes binge eating will help you. People who don’t know me very well probably wouldn’t guess the truth. I’m a good […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: Am I Restricting?

A few weeks ago, I had a conversation that uprooted some feelings and set off some alarms…I still have difficult days, but overall I thought that I was on a steady path. But I left that conversation feeling uncertain. And yet, it was exactly the kind of uncertainty I needed to feel at that moment — as […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: Enough Already!

Changing My Relationship With Food — And Myself — Takes A Lot Of Energy When I think about my ever-evolving relationship with food, my body, my weight, and my binging – I instantly feel like I need a nap. I’ve been scrutinizing my eating habits and my reflection since before puberty. I’m exhausted. Who knew that one […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: I’ve Been Having An Affair

I’ve been having an affair. It’s sexy. It’s seductive. It makes me feel like I’m on top of the world.  Time stops when I’m with “him”. I feel desired, dangerous, and daring. But as soon as the heat of the moment has passed – I realize what I’ve done. I’ve cheated on myself… again…with Food. […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: We CAN Just Do It!

I did something crazy. Me, myself, and I took Nike’s famous words of wisdom – and we just did it… I Wasn’t Feeling Up For My Regular Gym Routine I was on my way to the gym after work the other day – and I just couldn’t bear the thought of going through with all of the […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: The Moment of Truth

I Really Thought I Was About To Binge Thursday July 24, 2014 – 6:35 PM I’m standing in front of the donut shelves at a grocery store. Right now. I’m typing this on my phone. Thursday July 24, 2014 – 9:30 PM That’s when I got a call. I’m home now. And my head is […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: Making The Switch To A Healthy Lifestyle

It hasn’t been an easy road. There have been hurdles to jump over, rocks to trip over, and mountains to climb… or shall I say – cakes to jump over, spaghetti to trip over, and ice cream sundaes to climb? (Just some good old-fashioned food humor to start us off today, eh?) Over the past […]

The Binge Eating Diaries: Help Me Stop Binge Eating

It took me two years to say it out loud. During a conversation with my Mother, as I was drowning in a river of tears and choking on every short breath, I managed to exhale a phrase that meant “help me stop binge eating.” [div class=”callout-left”]Read This Related Article: Acknowledging the Legitimacy of Binge Eating […]