Today’s post comes from our new staff participant Mary, known by many of you as Merry Mary via her blog. We’re thrilled to have her with us for the next few months, during which time she’ll share some of her thoughts as she goes through the Green Mountain program. Welcome, Mary!
Hello, A Weight Lifted readers! My name is Mary and I’m a healthy living blogger at my own site A Merry Life where I’ve spent almost two years writing about my weight loss successes and failures. As much as I wish I could deny it, the up and down cycle of weight loss due to emotional eating had me trapped over the last year. I recently came to Green Mountain for a three-month stay as a staff participant, hoping to permanently change the way I view and use food.
After two weeks I’ve already seen changes both in my body and the way I think. But I’ve also noticed how hard it is to appreciate those changes in some moments. Subtle changes can be overlooked when I realize how much work I still need to do to change my thoughts and actions. When I focus on the big picture of what I want to accomplish, it is easy for my successes so far to be overshadowed.
That is why I appreciate the things I’m learning here so much. While my brain still wants to focus on the future and think about all the things that are going to happen, I am learning to be present and to focus on what is happening now.
So instead of worrying about the huge tasks, I’m shifting my attention to the things that are happening right now. I am learning to focus on and enjoy my food at each meal, something I’ve never been taught to do. Instead of rushing through meals, I am sitting down to think about what I am eating, how it tastes, and whether or not I really am hungry for more. The concept of eating mindfully is new to me and I’m learning to embrace it. Instead of looking at the huge process it takes to change years of bad habits, I am just taking it one meal at a time because I know that change never happens overnight.
Change isn’t easy for most of us. How do you stay the course when success seems a long way away?